April 26, 2008

The original Proboards message board has been closed down by Proboards management! Staff is working to restore it and retrieve everybody's post counts and karma and in the mean time we have moved to another board. REGISTRATION IS ADMIN-MODERATED and we are progressing VERY SLOWLY due to problems we've had with personal information and photos being leaked. Once you sign up, it may take several days for your account to be approved - please be patient and bear with us; we're trying to preserve the sanctuary that took so long to build.

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September 1, 2006

Hello, dearest butterflies. I apologize for the lack of updates lately. I have been in a residential treatment facility for the last two months and have not had the time nor energy to maintain this website very actively.

I want to thank all of you who have left messages in the guestbook expressing your appreciation for this website.

As I continue to grow and change and view my eating disorder in different ways, I will be updating Cerulean Butterfly to reflect that. I am not going to turn this into a full-on recovery website, just as it has never truly been a full-on pro-ana site. I want to express both sides of the eating disorder: the side that is joy and control, and the side that is pain and suffering. Certain parts of the original site are not currently available, as I am debating whether or not they fit in with my core values and Statement of Intent.

Please bear with me as I put things together here.

I hope to change this site into something from which everyone - eating disordered or not - can benefit. I hope that those who suffer from eating disorders will continue to find a home, a place of support and understanding, or love and acceptance. I hope that those testing the imposing waters of recovery will find an honest view of it, gentle nudging towards it, and maybe motivation to continue when the road is rough. And I hope that those who have never felt the grip of an eating disorder - who come here out of concern for a loved one, out of curiosity, or even randomly - will find an honest dipiction of eating disorders as well as a deeper view into this dark, often frightening world.