I'm human, too. Okay?
This site has gotten a lot of exposure because of the TIME magazine article that came out this week. Which, for me, translates into an inbox and guestbook riddled with angry messages: insults, accusations, and lawsuit threats.
I cried myself to sleep last night.
I'm only human, you know. Why do you think it's okay to try to hurt and scare me? If you're here, you must know that I have an eating disorder and struggle with self-injury. I'm a fucked-up, rather fragile kid with a lot of self-doubt and self-hatred. I take criticism too seriously and all the hugs and support in the world can't take the sting out of some of the things that have been said to me by people on this site.
Please, just realize that, just as my words have the power to make you angry or sad, your words have same power to hurt me. I'm not saying you have to like me or my site or what I have to say, but for chrissakes... I'm a human being. Not a punching bag.
Examples... and fuck yeah I'm putting in your email address. I hope you get hatemail, too! I'm more than allowed to bite back.
from oomrsmiawallaceoo@yahoo.com
THIS IS HATE MAIL. ENJOY!
I went to your site after seeing the article in Time.... you're a fucking
idiot.
I saw your picture and if you could only see how ridiculous you look!! I laughed
so
hard!! I mean for someone who is so concerned with their body image, you would
think they would notice that their head looks waaay too big for their body!
Look,
do me a favor and keep starving yourself.... starve yourself to death for
all I
care, but don't go around approving a potentially deadly "lifestyle choice"
for
young people and even children. It is irresponsible, plain and simple. Come
to
Ohio, bitch. I'll snap your twiggy ass in half and then rip your big head
off....
better yet, I hope you get your ass kicked by some huge, fat person... the
irony
would be a much better payoff then my skinny ass beating the shit out of your
skinny ass. Have a nice day!
(i hope it makes you feel SO good about yourself to pick on people. you were one of those bitches from middle school that took my pencils, weren't you?)
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Of course people are gonna hate you. You are PROMOTING anorexia. Surely, people would respect you if you weren't. oh, and when I find you... you're dead. you can block my ip addy, but i can trace yours. happy starving.
(and alfie, I can track your IP as well. How's the weather over there in Abderdeen, Scotland? you step foot on US soil and i'll have you arrested.)
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from some anonymous a-hole
*you're* so stupid, get a life, quit swearing, grow up, and just eat some
food! You won't die from eating.
(well, you CAN die from eating, actually. overeating is just as deadly as starvation. or you could get tainted food. or you could be anorexic, y'know, and eating makes you want to fucking kill yourself. there's that too. clearly you have no idea what anorexia is.)
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from Jethro, who was too cowardly to leave his email address
Ain't nothing wrong with you bitches a little gravy biscuit won't fix.
(read what i said to the guy above this. because all emotional issues can totally be fixed by doing the one thing that those issues have led you to believe is evil.)
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another anonymous a-hole
From what i read, you sound like a psycopath. You have no self esteem what so ever. Listen to yourself and try to make the least bit sense of it, you sound SO pathetic. Its making me nauseous. Compare yourselves to people in the third world countries such as Sudan, Ethiopia, India etc. where innocent people don't know if they're going to live another day considering that they have nothing to eat, you should thank god that you are in a far FAR better state than so many people in this world.
I can't believe that the TIME magazine has actually indirectly become the source of promoting this website by writing about it. I think that the CDC or federal government should ban this website--which is impossible given the freedom of speech rights which entitles both you (unfortunately) and I to our opinions. Stop trying to kill yourselves and worse--convincing others to do it by confusing them into contradicting statements that don't make any sense.
I am not apologetic in the least bit by giving you this lecture. I doubt
that my words could be of use to you since being on your death bed with a
weight of 88 lbs. couldn't teach you jack about life and my words could be
very ineffective compared to your state of health that urged you to dig this
hell hole you call a website.
(about those starving people in dusty countries... how about you stop bitching at and belittling total strangers over the internet and get your ass over there to help them?)
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from another liz. i'm not putting this one's email just because, if "her" story is true... well, then i really do feel bad for this guy.
I didn't come on your site to bash you, hate you, or curse and swear to make myself feel better...No one can change an opinion. My message is from someone else though. I have been anorexic or as long as I can remember...and I loved it. I loved feeling hungry. I loved being skinny. When my heart eventually stopped beating and I died I thought that maybe my body in Heaven would finally be perfect...I thought wrong...A person can never acheive perfection through anything. Talk to any super-skinny supermodel and I guarantee that they hate parts of their bodies as well. No matter how skinny you encourage people to get, they will never be happy with their bodies until they are happy with their souls...A further note..before I died I was able to contact my uncle who is a pretty famous journalist...Expect a letter from him...and expect a court date...because you helped kill me
(i think you should take a closer look at the real-world, real-life factors that contributed to your neice's illness. the idea that a total stranger a million miles away was the sole cause of her anorexia is beyond ridiculous. can you even prove that she visited my site? more likely it was family- and self-esteem issues that really had nothing to do with me. anorexia is not my invention; people are more than able to come up with it on their own. don't dishonour the memory of your neice by using her to make me feel bad or help YOU get closure through some frivilous lawsuit that WILL side with me.)
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from ladydeerheart@loveable.com
I, too, saw your site advertised in this week's Time magazine. It reminded me of another person that I read about in Time magazine a few years ago. Maybe you remember him? He caused the deaths of many people too. Dr. Jack Kevorkian. At least he had the intelligence to actually HELP people that needed help. Oh, by the way you didn't mention that after the butterfly starves itself it flys away to DIE. No matter how you justify this in your very very young minds it still amounts to helping young people kill themselves. And that is what you will be known for. Nothing else in your life will ever matter because you creatively caused the deaths of innocent people.
I wonder if you hope your daughters and sons get this disorder. And if in your heart you answer yes I hope to heaven someone has the sense to take them away from you before you cause them the same harm you are causing yourself. Enjoy what life you have because you will die very very young.
(i'm not even going to respond to this one. just wanted to share the viscious idiocy of this "person.")